I have totally sucked at updating this everyday. I'm usually a lot better about that. I've just been busy. I do have some updates though, I have not heard one word from Alex. Which is totally ridiculous. Well at least I think so. Goes to show that college boys are fucking stupid, and I totally don't want a relationship with one. However on the other hand I did find this totally awesome guy, who I am totally falling for. He's older, handsome, sweet, funny, and overall amazing. The only thing about him, is that he lives like an hour away. Which is kind of a downer.
In other news, I don't get my car up here until the 26th. LAME! So, I'm kind of stuck jobless, and at my Mom's house until it's here. I'm moving into my Dad's house when my car and other things get up here, so I'm kind of excited about that. Anywho my life has just kind of been boring and mellow, and I hope it gets a little more exciting here soon. I really want a job! I need money, and I want to meet some new people.I've been in such a good mood lately though, I mean there have been some speed bumps but compared to how I was feeling the last week of December and through New Years, its a big improvement! It must be the new man in my life. haha.

This past weekend was so busy! It was tons of fun though. I'm really not looking forward to flying back to Texas. I really don't wanna go back to work. Bleh! I'm kind of excited though because my friend Alex is coming over today, and thats pretty bitchin' because I get to see him before I leave, and I never ever get to see him anymore. Thats one thing I miss about being younger, you got to see friends everyday at school, and got to grow up with people. Now everyone is changing, or you're changing and they are staying the same. You lose touch with your "good friends" and you meet new people. Growing up is hard. These years aren't fun. Everyone is just fucking lying when they say these are the best years of their lives....

*Hours later*
I forgot to finish this post earlier, and yeah Alex just left, and it was so much fun; he kissed me?! Weird, because we've been good friends since we were freshman in high school. Anyways, we've always had a thing for each other, but we never have been more than just friends. So, I don't really know whats going to happen with us now. He's really cute and sweet, but I don't know if either of us want to start a relationship, because, I am currently still living in Texas, and he is at CNU for school right now.
Bleh everything is really confusing.
yeah...